Month: December 2020

My resolutions for the New Year of 2021.

1. Pray

2. Help others in recovery

.3. Do not break the law, I look like shit in orange

.4. Listen to music

.5. Study

6. Love

Morning. As you can guess, I haven’t been knitting. Between this and that, I just haven’t made the time or the effort. Not since the hubs took my recliner and flung it across the room that day.

Since then, knitting and everything that is good, is going to wait. Nothing I can do about it. Life goes on.

Morning all, the coffee is on, and the first of several phone calls has been done and dusted. I’ve got some Clanadonia music in the earbuds, and it’s a lovely morning.

This morning I woke a bit later than I like again. Yes, the 2 hours of extra sleep is a gift, however in 2 days, I’ve got to get up on time for the step study. I am determined to keep it up and keep working.

Meanwhile, Duke has already unwrapped his Christmas gifts, and he is a happy pupper doodle. He loves his chewies, and good n plenty has a kabob thingy that he is over the moon over. I’m going to have to find more of those.

The hubs is still asleep. I enjoy my morning quiet time without him to be honest. Having a couple of hours to think, relax, and greet the morning with God is always a blessing. Okay, to be honest, I get less morning quiet time when I oversleep like this. So, tomorrow, back to the grind stone.

As far as Christmas goes, my gift from my husband this year was the battery for my car. We had to have it installed last week. The hubs got wasted drunk again, we had the cops here a few times, and he handed me his debit card. He told me to get the battery and whatever else we needed.

How romantic.

It’s life. His disease is not mine. As in, not my circus, not my monkeys.

Waiting for him to get a grip and get sobriety is taking awhile you know. I’ve only been waiting since 2002. Many families wait much much longer.

So, I will keep waiting.

It has been a few weeks now. The vlogs on the step study are going well enough. I’m pretty tired most of the time. Yet there is so much work to do.

Living with only 3 meetings per week has been a struggle. However the step study is kicking me in the ass. I am finding that I’m quoting the books more often.

All in all, things are hard, but we will survive.