Why are you still in recovery, and why do you still go to meetings? You’ve been clean almost 25 years

Morning all, hope this post reaches you in good serenity. We’re behaving.

I recently had this question come up. I started the answer on pen and paper, but decided to move it to the blog. My clean date is October 16th 1998. I’ve been actively going to meetings since September 2nd 1997.

I’ve ordered my 25 year medallion, NA doesn’t give frontsies, however I do want it available when the time comes. I have chosen a phoenix design this time Why?

This October when the time comes, I still won’t have been clean half of my life. I was born drunk. My folks believed in a little beer in the baby bottle. I will be 51 years old the day my medallion is real. I remember my last use.

It was at Smookies pizza. Combo plates, skunked beer, and my soon to be ex-husband. I didn’t know it was a soon to be ex, at that time, he was only threatening me back then. The beatings hadn’t commenced yet. The divorce will have been final 25 years ago July 23rd this year.

I remember who I was back then. I remember the desperation. I remember being a slave to drugs. I remember that life revolved around Dr’s appointments, lying, begging, and dying on the inside. I remember getting last rites by a priest with tears in his eyes after a suicide attempt of 63 sleeping pills.

Addiction is patient as hell. It’s growing in me, and waiting for me to slip. Then here we go again.

That’s what it was like. What’s happened since then is logged here on this website over and over again. Working the steps, finding and keeping a sponsor. Living the program. Thousands of meetings, many hours over coffee until 3-4 in the morning. Campouts, dances, cleaning ashtrays, and pouring over literature looking for the solution. None of that was a waste of time.

They say only 2 percent of addicts make it in recovery. Lower than the 3 percent that AA claims. Here’s the rub.

I’ve seen obituaries and jail rosters. I’ve gone to funerals. The disease of addiction is death in a nutshell. That’s why I stay clean, work a program, and go to meetings. I’ve received last rites once. Let’s don’t do that again.

Hugs my friends. Take care. Love you. -L


Step 6-12 in NA and afterwards.

See the Blog Posts for Steps 1-5. You will need all of your previous work, the books and etc.. Follow the proceedures.

Note: this is not to replace sponsorship, this is how I work the steps, not the only way to work the steps. Also, Page numbers are no longer going to be included, the proceedure is the same throughout the program.

BT: Read, highlight and etc…. One segment at a time. Go on to the IW, then the SWG. Take a break about every 5 days, and 1 day between the steps.

When You are finished with step 12… Then the real work begins. Read pages 54-107 out of the BT, one segment at a time. Take notes, and work through the information. You will need the Sponsorship book, and Living Clean the Journey continues. Before hitting those, go it IW, and work through the traditions. Then move on to The sponsorship book and etc..

After you are done with all of that, maybe a year has gone by. It’s time to start over with step one again. I also redo the steps with each maor life event, no matter what area of recovery I am currently working on. About half an hour a day outside of meetings and sponsorship is about right, except in the first year.

When you have questions, ask the members with time who have worked the program from the books. They are out there. Also, don’t forget to mark the sheet out of your books, correlations, cross-references, and definitions go in the margins.

Hugs, and best of warm thoughts to you. -L

Step 5 for NA

See steps 1-4 before doing this step. This is how I work the Steps in NA, not the only method etc…

Note: I schedule doing my 5th step with another human before I start the work. This gives me a definite deadline. It also ensures that I don’t procrastinate. I’m no longer in Highschool, and therefore cramming the night before does jack squat for me.

You will need your step work done so far, as well as all of the things mentioned in Step 1 and 4 blog posts.

Day 1: BT: Read PP31-33, follow proceedures.

Day 2: IW: 49-58, may want to break this up over 2 days. Follow Proceedsures.

Day 3 onwards: SWG: One section per day PP 45-51. Go back over all your previous step work, including what you have written in the SWG for 5, then, sit down and pray. When it is time for your appointment, follow what your sponsor suggests. If you are doing step 5 with your sponsor, if they want you to bring your book bag and previous work, do so. Hugs, Always.

Step 4 for NA

Go back over the blog posts for Steps 1-3 for methods, needs and proceedures before attempting this step. This is how I work the steps, and is only one of many methods for working the steps. You may also want IP 10, working step 4 in narcotics anonymous.

Note: This one will include the IP. Shorthand for the Books is as follows. BT- Basic Text or Narcotics Anonymous the book; IW- It works, How and Why; IP- IP 10 Working Step 4 in Narcotics Anonymous; SWG- Step Working Guide

Day 1: BT: 27-31, follow proceedure.

Day 2: IW: 36-42, follow Proceedure

Day 3: IW: 42-48, follow Proceedure.

Day 4: IP: 1-5 up to Resentments. Follow Proceedure.

Days 5-10: IP: 5-7, Resentments section. Note this may take longer than 5 days to work through.

Days 10-20: IP: 7-9, Relationships Section, See above, this may take longer.

Days 20-?: IP: With each section take a week. See above, may take longer. You will want to take a 24 hour break about once per week.

Day ?: SWG: One section per day. Pages 31-41. When you are finished, take a week or two to go back over all of your work. Go through it with your sponsor. Then, as before, go back through all of the work completed so far. You will notice things you missed, things that have changed, and things that no longer make sense. It’s okay. Take one day off after step 4, and move on to step 5.

Step 3 for NA

See the Step 1 and Step 2 posts before proceeding. The items needed and proceedures haven’t changed. Page numbers will be as found in the literature.

Day 1: Basic Text, PP 25-27. Follow proceedure. Note, by now you will also see correlations with previous steps and lines from earlier in the Basic Text, mark those as well.

Day 2: It Works, How and Why: 26-35.

Day 3: SWG: 19-23

Day 4: SWG: 24-28

Day 5: Break

Days 6-14: Go back over all of your work so far, including steps 1 and 2. Note correlations, re-read the books, add to them, and especially go through this with your Sponsor unit. On Day 15, take a break, and you should be ready to do Step 4 on Day 16.

Hugs, you got this.