Today I am bored and in pain. I am eternally grateful for both feelings. It’s also the anniversary of my divorce to my first husband being final.

I don’t remember much of that 1 year, 2 months and 2 days of my life. It has been 19 years since the judge signed my papers.

So, to celebrate, what should I do? I will do what I did 19 years ago. I will go to a meeting to celebrate.

I am eternally grateful for that ending. If I were still married to him, I would be a different person today, probably not sober and probably dead.